Hilaria Baldwin admits she didn’t ‘quite understand’ what...

The yoga instructor said Alec later changed his mind about getting a prenup before their marriage. The longtime couple recalled the initial conversation they had about getting a prenup before tying the knot in the premiere of their new reality series, The Baldwins. Alec said the topic came up after his divorce from Kim Basinger – with whom he shares 29-year-old daughter, Ireland.

“After my first marriage, I said, ‘Let’s have a prenup,’” he said during a sit-down interview with his wife. “She wasn’t happy about it.”. Hilaria, who married Alec in 2012, chimed in, noting that the request for a prenup was a bit “awkward” for her.

“But I don't actually quite understand what a prenup is,” she explained. “Because you’re like, ‘After a certain number of kids, it’s this.’”. At the time, she told him she wasn’t necessarily concerned about the prenup. “I was like, ‘You know what? I’ll just sign it,’” the yoga instructor recalled. “Which was probably very stupid of me back then.”.

Hilaria said that if she was given a prenup now, she “would read it again.” However, she clarified that before getting married, she and Alec ultimately decided they didn’t need the prenup. “I just said, ‘I won’t sign it. I don’t really want to think about the end by the beginning.’ And then you were like, ‘Yeah, I don’t want to do it either,’” she concluded.

“I said I would,” she recalled during the interview with Alec. “And then you’re like, ‘Okay, we don’t have to.’”. Hilari and Alec have been married for more than 11 years now, and they share seven children: Carmen, 11, Rafael, nine, Leonardo, eight, Romeo, six, Eduardo, four, María, three, and Ilaria, two.

“Everyone who is close to Alec has seen his mental health decline,” Hilaria said. “He was diagnosed with PTSD and he says, in his darkest moments, ‘If an accident had to have happened on this day, why am I still here? Why couldn’t it be me?’”.

Speaking directly to her husband, she said: “You wake up in the morning and you're like, ‘Oh God, why did I have to wake up?’ You’re so dark and it's so painful.”. Alec responded: “My good friend said to me the other day, he said, ‘How are you doing?’ and I said, ‘I'm happier when I'm asleep than when I'm awake.’”.

The 30 Rock alum also told Hilaria: "I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have you and these kids going through this. I never would’ve made it with this. Sometimes I ask, 'Why did we have seven kids?' To help carry me and you through this situation.”.