I look like a deflated water balloon because of my BBL mistake – it’s not worth dying for, says Holly Hagan

HOLLY Hagan has opened up about her BBL and how she shed three stone to reverse the procedure naturally. The Geordie Shore star, 32, sat down to discuss why she started having cosmetic surgeries on the Should I Delete That podcast. Podcast co-hosts Alex Light and Em Clarkson asked what happened to body positivity in the last few years as the 'skinny trend' came back, with even the Kardashian family reportedly reversing their BBLs.

The Brazilian Butt Lift takes fat from the waist and injects it into the cheeks to give a fuller appearance. And now Holly has admitted to doing the same, as she revealed to having a boob job before even getting on TV. She revealed her body insecurities all started with a comment from a man she was dating. "I was already insecure; I didn't have much self-worth or self-esteem," she explained. "I remember going on a night out and one of the guys being like 'See, if you had t**s like that you'd be amazing,' and my friend had big boobs and I was like 'I've got nothing here.'.

"I wanted a boob job before I even started puberty.". Holly admitted she was getting paid well from Geordie Shore and at 21, had little bills to pay for so instead spent it on surgery. "I was like, I can try and look like a Kardashian, and life is going to be okay," she continued. "Unfortunately, now I'm looking like a deflated water balloon because of everything but you live and learn.". The mum-of-one who works as a fitness coach now says she knows how to manipulate her body naturally, and regrets the BBL.

I can't put weight on now because I can't fit through doors. The BBL Holly had injected fat to her bum and hip area, making it difficult to shift even with exercise. "Now, it's going to be really hard for me to achieve that gym-body look," she added. "I'm always going to have this abnormal, large backside if I ever gain weight, and this is actually the reason why I'm slimmer now than I ever have been; it's because I've been working so hard to get rid of the BBL.

Buttock enlargement surgery - known as a Brazilian Butt Lift (BBL) - is used to make the bum look bigger, rounded and lifted. Surgeons transfer fat, inject filler or insert silicone-filled implants. It is the fastest growing cosmetic procedure but also one of the most dangerous, according to the British Association of Aesthetic Plastic Surgeons (BAAPS). Many patients are travelling to the likes of Turkey or seeking out unregistered surgeons in the UK and are not given full information on the risks.

BBLs carry the highest risk of all cosmetic surgeries - with more than one death occurring per 4,000 procedures. Due to celebrities undergoing such ops, many women are hoping to emulate their looks. Many people travel abroad for the procedure because it is cheaper and advertising is "terribly seductive", combined with the idea of a beach holiday, added Dr Sayal-Bennett. "If I put any weight on, it goes straight to my bum, so now I'm held by this imaginary crutch because I'm like 'I can't put weight on now because I can't fit through doors.'.

"I look silly.". Asked if she would give her younger self advice on trend-led surgery, Holly revealed she wished she would have realised the idea of the perfect body constantly changing. She said: "Don't follow the trend, and know that just because you have boobs, it doesn't mean that boys are going to fancy you or not. "A man isn't just there because you've got boobs or a bum.". "I'd love to say to my younger self, please don't do that," Holly continued.