Bullying over her looks, feeling she’d failed as a woman...

SHE'S the world's most notorious porn star who revels in scandalising the masses with outrageous social media stunts. But behind her provocative persona, Bonnie Blue - famous for bedding more than 1,000 men in a day - hides a deep emotional trauma that left her feeling like she had "failed as a woman".

Image Credit: The Sun [Portrait of Bonnie Blue sitting on a clear chair.]

In her most candid interview to date, the 25-year-old, whose real name is Tia Billinger, tells The Sun she had longed to be a loving mother, hoping to start a family with her now ex husband Oliver Davidson. “It felt embarrassing, which is wrong because it shouldn't be like that, but you feel like you’re failing as a woman.

Image Credit: The Sun [Woman in a robe holding a sign that says "1000!"]

“It really was the most lonely time. "I didn’t want to speak to my family about it because I felt like I should be going to them with a pregnancy announcement.”. The OnlyFans star admits she's unsure whether she would have entered the sex industry had she had a child.

Image Credit: The Sun [Woman holding a sign that says "Bonk me for free let me film it" on a city street.]

“It's hard to say (whether I would have) because I have no idea," Bonnie says. “I think maybe some of this would have always happened, but would it have happened as early as it has? I don't know. “It's hard, but I'm in a way glad the way my life has turned out, because I know when I do have children, if I have children, I'll be able to be there and be present for them.

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“I would always be very honest about my background too because had I not done it they would have a very different upbringing.”. When it comes to her own early years, teenage Tia was a far cry from her confident adult-star alter-ego. “As a child I wasn’t overly clever and I did get picked on," she says.

Image Credit: The Sun [Photo of a young woman and man standing together outdoors.]

“It was mainly over my looks, which seems ironic to me now.”. Bonnie, from Derbyshire, rose to notoriety last year when she began bedding ‘barely legal’ university students for free in exchange for being allowed to film them. Armed with signs saying ‘Bonk me for free and let me film it’, Bonnie slept with 158 students in just two weeks, prompting international outrage, with many branding the sex worker ‘predatory’.

Image Credit: The Sun [Woman sitting on a beach eating watermelon.]

She wasn’t done provoking the public and in January left Internet users horrified when she slept with 1,057 men in one day, breaking a world record. It was an act so shocking that one mum arrived at Bonnie's queue to haul her teenage son out. Earlier this month, she further enraged fans by hinting she was pregnant, sharing a snap of her "cravings" and claiming her chances of conceiving after bedding over 1,000 men was "100%".

Image Credit: The Sun [Woman in black lace robe sitting on a bench.]

However, she later confusingly shut down the rumours, saying: "I have never confirmed I was pregnant because I would never, ever lie about pregnancy.". Bonnie has been criticised for the 'negative example' she is setting for teenagers, but she argues her videos endorse consent and female pleasure.

Image Credit: The Sun [Bonnie Blue in a photoshoot.]

“In my videos everything is consensual and focused around pleasure,” she says. “They show real people having real sex rather than it all being an act. “You will never see me distressed or upset in any of my videos, which is a far cry from a lot of porn.”.

Image Credit: The Sun [Portrait of Bonnie Blue.]

Bonnie was 13 when she began dating her first boyfriend, who she eventually lost her virginity to. She argues that it was the 'pleasure-focused' content she makes now that was severely lacking from her own teenage years. “I didn’t love sex initially," she admits.

Image Credit: The Sun [Portrait of Bonnie Blue sitting on the floor.]

“I didn’t know what I liked or what guys liked and I just didn’t have the knowledge to enjoy it like I do now.”. I have taken 300-400 virginities, and of course it can be awkward, but you just laugh it off. At 14, Bonnie met her now ex-husband Oliver Davidson, a talented rugby player, whom she eventually married at the age of 22.

The couple moved to the Gold Coast of Australia, where Bonnie ditched her 9 to 5 job in marketing to become a cam girl. “I was never interested in entering the sex industry until that point and that was mainly down to confidence issues,” Bonnie says.

“I didn't enjoy sex as I do now, so doing it as a job was of zero interest to me. “But then I saw these girls on TikTok who were camming and it meant they had total control over their work life and I really wanted that. “So I tried it, I had never even really watched porn before so I was really nervous, but I loved it.”.

The images of the ‘barely legal, barely breathing and the husbands’ queueing up for their ‘moment’ with Bonnie Blue were deeply unsettling and certainly nothing to aspire to. Especially, when weeks earlier the world followed the utterly depressing Mazan rape case.

Again rows of men, some old, some young, some professional, some unemployed, lined up to face conviction for the aggravated rape of Gisèle Pelicort who had been drugged by her husband. He had then invited acquaintances to assault his wife, while he watched and recorded the abuse.

The similarities of both are striking; hordes of men lining up for sex with just one woman. Of course there is a world of difference where, Bonnie Blue, invited men to have sex with her, while Gisèle was completely unaware of her abuse. But in reality the two events aren’t so far apart. We know that the rise in violent porn is leading to a huge spike in violence against women and girls.