I saw a pink gin advert and relapsed after 15 years sober Christmas was always defined by booze for me – even as a child.
Running away from my past, fleeing any type of feelings – every life circumstance was buffered by alcohol.
That meant I hated alcohol, I hated the smell and the effects it had on my life.
I was born to parents who had a drink problem but who took things a step further at the festive period.
That was the start of my drinking ‘career’ and for 17 years I chased that feeling while falling into abusive and toxic relationships.
