I'm a hospice nurse... the things I've witnessed have convinced me there is an afterlife
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A TikTok famous hospice nurse has revealed how a supernatural experience finally cured her crippling fear of death - and convinced her beyond doubt that there is an afterlife. Penny Smith, who has more than 870,000 followers on the platform, admits that, for most of her 62 years, she suffered from extreme death anxiety.
![[Smith didn't start her nursing career until she was 42, after what she describes as a 'shady past']](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2024/12/14/14/93001469-14175389-Smith_didn_t_start_her_nursing_career_until_she_was_42_after_wha-a-5_1734185321517.jpg)
'I thought about it constantly,' she says. 'One might even say obsessively. I worried about death day and night, mostly at night, when I would lie awake, seeking solace from my then-husband. '"But what if there's nothing after we die?" I would cry in anguish.'.
![[She believes that one phenomenon among dying people proves there is something beyond our life here on Earth (stock image)]](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2024/12/10/15/93001447-14175389-image-a-2_1733844927212.jpg)
Smith - a recovering alcoholic - didn't start her nursing career until she was 42, after what she describes as a 'shady past,' which included drug addiction, abuse, and multiple suicide attempts. And in her book, Influencing Death: Reframing Dying for Better Living, she says her unhappiness led to a morbid fascination with ending her life.
![[Smith - a recovering alcoholic - didn't start her nursing career until she was 42 (pictured with husband Randy)]](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2024/12/14/14/93001473-14175389-Smith_a_recovering_alcoholic_didn_t_start_her_nursing_career_unt-a-9_1734185321802.jpg)
'My death anxiety didn't manifest until I was in my thirties,' she writes. 'Truth be told, from the onset of my teen years until well into my twenties, I didn't fear death at all. I welcomed the thought of it. 'Between the bullying, drug and alcohol issues, mental health issues, and my propensity for finding men who abused me and inability to leave them, I attempted to "unalive" myself several times.'.
![[Smith's spiritual encounter with her father, Derral Ray Hawkins, 'finally brought me to my personal belief about what lies beyond']](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2024/12/14/14/93004293-14175389-Smith_s_spiritual_encounter_with_her_father_Derral_Ray_Hawkins_f-a-6_1734185321532.jpg)
Penny Smith, who has more than 870,000 followers on the platform, admits that, for most of her 62 years, she suffered from extreme death anxiety. 'Unalive' she explains, is the social media term used for suicide, to avoid the risk of your video being banned for featuring dangerous content.
