I think this is also why I’m still in the grey area of spending so much time with Mark, but unable to feel safe enough to make it official.
In the last six months Mark has always been the one receiving when it comes to penetrative sex, which suits me just fine.
Mark spent Sunday evening at mine, which is quite the achievement considering a mere few months ago I would get an Uber home post-ejaculation.
Disaster strikes leading up to bedtime, as Mark accuses me of sending mixed messages – after our passionate sex, I became withdrawn again.
For years, I equated my self-worth to whether people wanted to have sex with me, whereas now I feel confident within myself.
