At worst, she’ll thank you kindly, say no and you’ll feel horrendous – for a while (and if she reacts more negatively than that, then it will still help you get over this obsession – because nobody wants to date someone who’d be so cruel.
The pain of longing for someone who has no idea of your strength of feeling for them – or who doesn’t feel the same way in return – has the power to make us completely miserable.
How much better it is, in the end, to feel this angst and adrenaline, the pain and the excitement and the thunderous giddy thrill than to be deadened and cynical and shut off and immune to everything – even joy.
I feel like a schoolboy and it must be completely obvious – I go to pieces whenever she brushes past me.
Crushes make us feel both elated and terrible for precisely that reason – we become angry at ourselves for being so weak and so smitten.
